He just likes structure
It’s all working out
The kids are more quiet
I’ll learn to shut my mouth.
He doesn’t yell
He just leaves the room
But I know I should learn
To meet my needs alone.
There’s no follow through
In intimate times
But I cried today
So “the pressure’s too high.”
He sets his watch
To limit my speech
It makes me feel panic
But it’s not over-reach.
If I need to talk
About anything hard
I can get on his schedule
And he’ll spare me an hour.
He argues his right
To leave on a whim
And why should I care
If I really trust him?
The “one who got away”
Texts all the time
But since he told me
I should “relax, it is fine.”
“I watched tv with you
What more do you need?
If that’s not enough
You’re the problem, not me.”
I need him too much
I should be satisfied
To be alone
Or with the times he designed
“I’m not attracted to you”
He says with a smirk
But he doesn’t mean it “that way”
He isn’t a jerk
“I won’t cry when you die”
His voice calmly sings
But “it’s normal and valid
Don’t make it a thing.”
Every minute is scheduled
But if I need help
This is my option
Or else, shut my mouth.
“It’s your fault he cheated
you were probably too much
If I’d known before marriage
I would have run”
“you are so needy
Just leave me be
If you stay quiet enough
I might want intimacy”
“why do you fight
About everything?
If you just agreed
You’d get all that you need”
“It’s not what you did
Nothing specific you say
It’s how you make me feel
It’s just your way”
“Did you know you abused me
That time you were sad?
We disagreed in the car
And you made me feel bad.”
Too little too late
I told you before
You are crazy and drama
Time to walk out the door
’I’m just the problem
And other lies I told
Because it was more painful
To say “that word”